Back to school today. I’m glad. I felt horrible the time I wasn’t going to school. Like I had no purpose in life. Unfortunately, though, when I was going to register for organic chemistry next summer session…I found out they don’t teach it then. I am so upset. I knew not taking chemistry II would eventually bite me in the butt. I tried/planned two times before to take it. My life plan is all awry. Just shows that life does not always go as planned.
1. Obviously the lighthouse. 2. A hole in the floor of the lighthouse way up top where I decided to stick my lens through. 3. Dead horseshoe crab and shark.
May 20. My boyfriend’s birthday. We decided to be super unique and go to a lighthouse, which I had never been to one before. Walked up and down all 217 steps. Well, he raced. The rest of us wheezed up. Hah. I think the lighthouse even beat my birthday in terms of amazingness where I went to a science museum. Anyway. It was amazing. Him, his best friend, his best girl friend, and me. We had actually never hung out all together for one reason or another. I think it is a great mix, which is very important to me. And they all had such interesting stories to exchange. I absolutely love stories. Pretty much any kind. Even if I do not like you, I will still listen to your stories just because I love them so much.
We also went to a Korean restaurant for this birthday seaweed soup (for the life of me I cannot remember the name), but they did not have it. Blah. But we still enjoyed ourselves immensely. At least, I did. And it seemed like they did.
One of my childhood friends got engaged two days ago to his amazing, super sweet girlfriend. He was a genius and did it in a lantern tour in a cave! His mom got a picture and video of the whole thing! I am so happy for them. They’ve been together for four years…he is not one to act with haste. It was just a matter of time haha. I’m so jealous of her at the same time, though. My friend is part of my most favourite family in the whole world. Ever. And his brother was the one I liked for forever. Sigh. It is all in the past now. But they remain my forever favourite.
On My Own is such an appropriate song for me; it’s ridiculous how much.
Sometimes I think why. Why did I have to befriend someone with so much new baggage? Someone I can’t go anywhere with without the mood suddenly being brought down. Someone whose best friend died and wants to relive that person’s life. I mean, I know people have different ways of coping. But when it involves making someone else feel like they’re not good enough…it sucks. And NYC is supposed to be one of the best places on earth.
Usually I’m pretty okay with my physique. I remember the better stuff and try to accept the rest. But when I put on a pair of shorts today from last year…and they didn’t fit…I just felt like complete crap. Like a slob. I couldn’t find anything in my wardrobe I felt comfortable in. I mean, I’m in scrubs all day every day, right into PJ’s most days. Well, I have to say, I couldn’t give up that cookies and creme milkshake I’ve been craving. Sigh. I’ve been eating healthier in general, but that weight I put on from my last semester of school apparently just never went away. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.
Dance of the Robe - AIDA
Always gives me chills.
When people misunderstand things. Especially through text. That’s why I abhor texting. Plus, I’m just having an all around crappy day emotionally. Can’t I catch a break?
I made mashed cauliflower because I’ve heard so much about how it’s a great potato substitute. Utter. Fail. It looks amazing. The aftertaste of the sample I had was good. But for someone who hates cauliflower in the first place…ew. It gave me the shivers. I gave the stuff all to my boyfriend.
I don’t understand why I get so jealous for people’s attention sometimes. I don’t understand. And it’s worse when they take pictures. I swear. I must have grown up with something missing in my life. This can’t be normal.
Why do they think the best way to tell me “important” things is via super long text? And forward personal things to others as well, apparently?
Went out with my friend today at one of the historic towns nearby. We parked and walked over to the new coffee shoppe that has like, a zillion flavours of coffee and tried a different one (which we both liked a whole lot). They sold bagels there from a nearby place, and we asked where since we share a love for those round things. Google Maps led us to a 1.7 mile walk to this amazing bagel place that I would have never stopped at before since the outside is very deceiving. She got a PB&J bagel sandwich (cinnamon raisin bagel) and I a bacon, egg, and cheese bagel sandwich (asiago bagel). Amazing. We walked the 1.7 miles back only to stop at the vintage store. Ahhhhh. Amazing day. And now, I cannot fall asleep lol.